Ive Moved

2009-11-16T21:22:00.003+08:00

Whatever is left here, I put it as my memories. But youre ought to follow me still coz this is only quarter of my life. The rest unwritten here, more revealing than before.

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if i think about it, i started missing you. KAY BYEE

2009-11-16T01:37:00.004+08:00

Er look, in that photos im half weak but sizzy ask me to join and have shots.
pfft,

Aahhh , i've called bby twice plus left some messages but yet he's not responding to any of them ! I feel that i really need him badly. BUT I THINK HE'S ASLEEP! Gahhh, -.-

By right, i miss! him now.
oh boy, i seriously didnt eat much todayy whats happening to me! -.-

p/s BORING NIGHT, hehzx

Frankly, I Feel Weak ..

2009-11-16T00:09:00.001+08:00

suddenly i eat less than usual -.-

When I say ILOVEYOU, I dont say it out of habit. I say it to remind you that you're the best thing that's ever happened to me.

2009-11-13T22:04:00.005+08:00

I want him back, to be in a relationship with him. Not just as a boyfriend, i want intimacy and jokes. Late night calls and forehead kisses. I want long walks, late night shopping and holding hands. Intense conversations and i want him to watch me sleep. Someone to watch movie with. Arguments and soon after make ups. I want disagreements and late night cuddles. I want to draw him and for him to inspire me.

I love you. I love what we could be ..

Looking into your eyes, I see more than you believe. I see your soul, all you have over come, all you are. I take from that what I've found.

So this is what real love taste like? The sweet, bitter taste of adoration at it's finest.
It's not easy to define, when three words aren't enough.

Yet through all it's hardships, i know you're not just throwing words around. What you tell me is true, not from just the heart but down to the core of your very soul. I never thought I'd trust again, but the devotion I have to you is undeniable. The way your body molds with mine, almost as one. In fact, as one. We fight together, we are together, and together we're invicibles. Not a single word, phrase or aspersion could make me think otherwise. What this is, what you've given me .. is simply irreplaceable.

A deeper side has shown, from you and I. You've changed? I've changed too. This isn't a one person game, this is for two. A game that I depend on. We won't lose, I'll strive til I find my fairytale ending. Because with all honesty I know I've found my beginning. You're my soul, my light, my wings. I'll never give up.

You flooded me with this feeling, and now I know.
This is what real love taste like.

Cos' we had a GREAT day

2009-11-13T21:40:00.002+08:00

Lol , wanna try to do like this infront of him tomorrow :P

I really like you, but i dunno. I want to try again with you, but im not going to keep fighting over something useless and just get let down, like how it always do. But then again, i also dont want to give up something like you. I know you're different and that's what i love about you. You just make me happy, regardless of what has happened. I hope you know that.

Hey Boy, hope you dont mind me when i :
- put clips in your hair and make you look like a girl for laughs
- hug you randomly
- can't stop laughing
- say things that are irrelevant to the conversation
- make fun of you :D
- think of you as my best friend too
- give you my heart
- make weird faces
- forget what i'm saying in the middle of a sentence
- stare at you
- i pretend im tough :D
- when i yell at you for making fun of me but really, i think it's funny -.-

Hahah,

I dont want to feel this way anymore

2009-11-12T15:21:00.002+08:00

you dont seem to understand how i am, hey. you say you get me but really you don't. if you "got" me, you'd understand that i am a pretty fragile person, i'm the kind of person who needs reassurance, and i dont think you are, and i think that's why you don't think that what you're saying hurts me. Does that even make sense?
Prettyplease, if you think im suck at handling all this, at least you know what ive been felt all this while. and you know what im talking about,pretty sure. I did try my best, not to let my anger blast just like that, but thats what makes me. I thought you dont mind, after what we've been discussing all awhile. And im silent inthephone because im chilling myself. Not that i for sure not gonna talk to you again?! Well maybe our fights worn you out that you'd fall asleep, im sorry about that but relieved enough that i speaked up too ? But wait, i think im wrong. Still have the cheeks to webcam with my sizzy, where i've been hoping you'd called me back. Yerp, its pretty shit hey. Not only that, you even tell her that you dont know whether you would want to give up on me or not. Get in ur head can, after im having the timeout period, i never think of giving up on you or even think about that. Oh well, it shows me how great you are now, huh.

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it's really sad i cant say this yesterday but i wishes to say this to him
" and everyday you're in my head, I want to have you in bed. You are the world, you're in my eyes, all i ever want in my life"

fuck it, do he cares now? whatever then.

Baby , help me find thesee ! :D

2009-11-10T19:46:00.003+08:00

Up on my list, but i dont think i could find all .
merely some , but who cares . Bby gonna help find this.
Effin cool outfits, for my closet! Weeee .
Booohoo, oh so gonna be mine :D

TickTock

2009-11-10T18:40:00.001+08:00

FUN! lol.

For you, JUST QIFF

2009-11-10T02:21:00.004+08:00

Oh mann~ i seriously love his latest post. Obviously he's referring to me, durh. Well feel much relieved now that im keeping up with this good behaviour of mine ! Im pretty sure he's having his greatest time with me, but i bet him more that this coming weekend gonna be a blast. Aahh , how i wish i could simply just give him a kiss now, oh infact more of them ! :D

Excuse me Q.Qiff, here's for you :

take love, multiply it by infinity and take it to the depths of forever..
and you still have only a glimpse of how i feel for you (:

I love you , always.

Saturday Night

2009-11-09T23:53:00.004+08:00

Some overdue pictures. Look at that fringe of mine! Really need to have it cut short!
Oh well , new hairstyles needed too! Aahh !

I like to make myself believe

2009-11-08T17:58:00.002+08:00

I hate how I can feel so many different things at one time.
I bet i makes everything so confusing. He never can think straight when i get like this.

Still , youre the best thing i never knew i needed :D

Love ya

What I've Missed !

2009-11-08T17:53:00.003+08:00

Blessthefall - Atticus Tour #4

p/s it kicks like a sleep twitch.

I love myself

2009-11-06T23:42:00.002+08:00

Oh look, i should stay at home tomorrow ( because i wanted to ) but credits to Jia, she decided to go out with me , see if she cann . And she wanna called it off as a 'Date' ? Aww, first time seh dier ajak aku kluar. Somemore, seems like the rest of my family members had their own plan..errr so i want to go out too! Klw tak , habis home alone siah, check2 lepak pat rumah kau jek ah :D haha.

indeed ive let it out, its your own now for you to see it. Suit you.

not the usual me

2009-11-05T19:41:00.002+08:00

This is not going to work out. Im tired.
Just go and find the right one. I dont want to hurt you.
Im sorry.

p/s *speechless*

Rockwell

2009-11-04T20:56:00.003+08:00

i love that look of being as a vintage geek :D

Sizzy and I have found that if you squint your eyes real good and
peep through your fingers, paranormal activity is less scary. Hehx

p/s Ive got the words, but i lack the sound.

Wednesday Blues

2009-11-04T20:20:00.003+08:00

I've got JUICE and on the other hand,
i'm pissed. Give me something to believe in.

Right, just dont Ever talk to me. EVER

p/s a breath from the breathing.

Country boys, City girls

2009-11-04T01:22:00.002+08:00

I want to do more than just exist

Currently listening : Hysteric - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
"The cinders, the cinders. They light the path, and these strange steps.
Take us back, take us back" hehe, love this :D

tomorrow, i'll miss you weeeeee.

I think I over think things too much

2009-11-04T00:49:00.002+08:00

I am always thinking about things to the point where it becomes something it shouldn't be.
oneBIGmess
I want to buy a packet of skittles and throw them at people,
and SHOUT 'taste the rainbow!'
Haha, someone's facebook status. I should try that someday.

"Tata, my eyes are falling"
I miss this. I say it whenever I'm really sleepy, lol.

p/s every atom of me missed him.

Hello World, this is Me

2009-11-02T21:45:00.003+08:00

it dosent matter what i do, or say, or the way i act. im never going to be good enof for you, your never going to want me and your never going to see me as more than a friend ..

Except him, he does love me for who i am :D

p/s oh great im bored here, webcam anyone?

Misguided Ghost

2009-11-02T20:51:00.002+08:00

Another random day with her including Mum. We finally get a nice chat with mum.

p/s new camera, soon !

Fact :

2009-11-01T21:31:00.003+08:00

Indeed, love the hair color. Oh wow look at her outfit!
gee i need new hair ideas for me to have a new hairstyle .

p/s I'll be fine, even though i'm not always right.

Hello 1st November!

2009-11-01T18:40:00.005+08:00

Cant wait for this month, especially my 1st monthsary with Qif!
Hey, i found this while i was blog(tumblr)hopping at someone's blog. Seems not that scary if this happen to me yesterday LOL.

Well this may be part of my confession. I never cry in movies. Ever. Not in The Notebook, Up, Harry Potter[I heard sobs when Dumbledore died], My Sister’s Keeper…etc. I’ll get a teeny emotional, then realize it’s just a movie, and get over it. But, I’ve just never cried. I know a guy who cried while watching The Notebook. I felt more masculine. My cousin cried in Air Bud. I laughed. My mother sobbed throughout P.S. I Love You. I teased her. But, now I’m thinking. Is there something wrong with me? Should I be crying? I’m not going to force myself to cry during movies, but I’m just wondering.

p/s this is only the beginning.
to think things are okey.

Evil Urges

2009-10-31T21:11:00.003+08:00

Up on my shopping list .

p/s I hate when in the middle of texting they don’t reply until an hour later. But at least they apologize for it , LOL ( really suit if it refers to me, right Qif? )

This weekend is off to a not so great start.

2009-10-31T17:58:00.002+08:00

Report books collected, no complains or whatever. Mum was shocked getting to see that i get a Ugrade for Maths, but i cant see why either. I know i did my very best for it -.- The weather was so hot that we can even perspire in the bus, wanna know why? The air-con was not on! Hell ya. Lucky Mum didnt get so annoyed except for me, i was like shout at others "EH HOT LEHHHH!" dont mind me.

Headed to Lot1 straight to have our meals. Mum treat me to the Delifrance! Wootzx. While at there, I do feel bored. Thought on messaging Qif at that moment, because my phone seems to be so silentt without any new messages and yes thats weird. But thanks to my careless, I forgot to bring along my phone! I get so frustrated but what to do, i know he misses me much. Well i do , for myself :D haha.

Today didnt get to meet him again, tomorrow i dont think so either. So lets wait for the coming week?

Tonight, homealone again but Sizzy's here too So I’m going to sit at home, watch tv and eat with her. Fun Saturday night, right? pfft.

p/s thanks for the cadbury dearie, * smiles*